Everyone in the shower: spend 90% thinking about how they should solve world problems 10% showering
Me in the shower: spend 100% of the time hating my body
//ME in the shower : spend 80% of time puking my guts out.
starving-for-skinny: I thought I could stop, and then this, deepest one yet, I’m going to try to stop at one
sleeplessnight-s: can i have ur pullover plz
fragileminded: The reality of having an eating disorder.  Ten years ago I was eleven and I wanted to lose two pounds. Ten years later I want to lose just about another thirty pounds or maybe forty, fifty - dead. I don’t know what you see when you look at this picture but all I see is fat. Too much, too big, not thin enough, not toned enough, everything I see is wrong.  All I want to do is lose weight. All I think about is losing weight. All I want to be is thinner. Sometimes it feels like this is all I have left. I’m not in school, I don’t have a job, I don’t have much of a social life - I have this. I have a body which is failing, I have brittle bones. I have scars. My body is rotting from the inside out. I have a heart that’s slowly getting worse, what you see in the picture is an ECG monitor. I had to wear it for 24 hours so that maybe someone will be able to tell me what’s up with my heart.  My eating disorder is literally ruining me but the fear of gaining weight is so immensely terrifying that I’m just.. just no. If I could accept the fact that I need to gain weight to be healthy - I could have a life again. I could feel alive again. I’ve got everything to win but as long as it includes gaining weight - I’m just not doing it. My family is desperate, the other day my dad told me he’d buy me a car if I went inpatient and got better.  Everyone: you could have a life, you can do everything you dream of. You can have a life and we’ll even buy you a car when you get better! Eating disorder: Does it involve gaining weight? Well then, the answer is no.  I’m perfectly able to see how wrong this scenario is - but it doesn’t change anything. I wanted to lose two pounds and in the end I went all in and lost… just about everything I had to lose. Do you think I think I made the right choice when I chose to starve myself to reach my goal? Two pounds vs. a life.  All I wanted to do was lose a couple of pounds. I never pictured this.
outremangeuse: This picture proves that losing weight won’t make you happy.She is still facing the same demons and cutting :(